The Big Picture...

Have you ever wished you could fly with the birds. Have you ever longed to fly away and leave all of this life's heartaches and pain behind? I actually use to have a recurring dream that I could fly...I could quickly take myself above what ever situation I was in and see down on the big picture. I just realized that I haven't had that dream in a very long time.

I have to wonder if maybe my heart no longer wants to know what the big picture is. Am I afraid of it or am I trusting God more to work it out for my good? I'd like to believe that I am trusting God but I know in my heart that this day to day life can be so hard. I know that I often lean unto my own understanding and forget to trust God. That never gets me very far or grants me an ounce of peace.

I long to be more like the birds of the field. Wake up singing...freely accepting God's gift of a new day and going about the task at hand that has been set before them. 

Spring is coming and there will be many new nest built. I have a nest of my own...but it often seems so empty...so abandoned.

I know this is the way God designed this thing called life...but it is hard. Not a day goes by that I don't long to hold my babies again, that I don't  miss them, that I don't wonder if I gave them everything they will need. As these words come to the tips of my fingers and are typed on this keyboard God is reminding me that He too has missed me, that He longs to hold me and to remind me that He is all I need.

He sees the big picture. He created it. He knows the plans He has for me. He will make a way. He is my rock and my fortress. His eye is on this sparrow and I know He watches me...

PS. Oh yes, thank you Lord for letting one of my little birdies come home and spend the night in the nest last night. She has no idea how that blesses a mama's heart! 

She painted that picture for me...and I love it...I love her...